Jon McLaughlin hit the nail on the head when he said that “we all need saving.” His song is a beautiful testament to our humanity and our desperate need to call upon a higher power. On this Easter Sunday, it’s one of the most important days of the year to remember how true this is. About a year ago, I wrote a prayer that I want to re-share with you. I’m copying it down into here, because I think that you should know the setting of it, too.
April 4th, 2012
[Setting the scene for you: I was sitting in church tonight, and this is what I scribbled on a notepad. This is verbatim, no editing made. I didn’t omit anything; I’m laying it all out for you. Enjoy?]
Woah. I sit here in Your magnificent presence, and I am trying to start somewhere – but where? My sins, my failures, my mistakes? My wants, my needs, my downfalls? No. I think I should just start with You. And end with You. And whatever happens in between is up to you. I like how that sounds.
Lord, you gotta lead me with strong hands, but know that I’m trying, lead me with a forgiving heart, but know that I’m loving, and love me with an everlasting kindness, but know that I don’t deserve it. Lord, please make me more awake and alive to You. Show me the real me – the side of me that You see. I want the true mirror and the real reflection – because what You are to me is all that matters now and all that ever will.
I’ve had my doubts – I’ve had my mistakes and sins. I’ve had my hard times and my lost opportunities to love You. Please, please, please, make me aware of a greater longing for You, and make Your presence known to me. I’ve been blinded by the things of the world and the things I let myself focus on. Shed those, tear those, burn those, destroy those. Focus me on You alone, and make me one with You. I turn to You.
Looking back on this – where I was at nearly one year ago – I really love the middle part of it. Perhaps it’s because I feel as though I’ve come such a long way since that day… But the part about leading with strong hands and a forgiving heart and loving me kinda rocked me. Not only that, but I’m kinda surprised at my candor when I said “because what You are to me is all that matters now and all that ever will.” Not to say that I didn’t believe it then, but I don’t think I understood the seriousness of that statement when I wrote it that night.
It’s neat that I can look back and be happy with how far I’ve come in my faith journey. I guess it proves that God is working on the days that I forget to notice His plan in my life.
“Let Him be the way
To all that I want to do
And I’m not letting go of His truth
No matter what the mess, He’ll see me through
Let Him be the way.”
I pray that on this beautiful Easter morning, you can take the time to focus on making Jesus “the way” in your life.
Verse for the night: “Love righteousness, you who judge the earth; think of The Lord in goodness, and seek Him in integrity of heart; because He is found by those who do not test Him, and manifests Himself to those who do not disbelieve Him.” – Wisdom 1:1-2