And I’m not letting go of His truth.

Jon McLaughlin hit the nail on the head when he said that “we all need saving.” His song is a beautiful testament to our humanity and our desperate need to call upon a higher power. On this Easter Sunday, it’s one of the most important days of the year to remember how true this is. About a year ago, I wrote a prayer that I want to re-share with you. I’m copying it down into here, because I think that you should know the setting of it, too.

April 4th, 2012
[Setting the scene for you: I was sitting in church tonight, and this is what I scribbled on a notepad. This is verbatim, no editing made. I didn’t omit anything; I’m laying it all out for you. Enjoy?]

Woah. I sit here in Your magnificent presence, and I am trying to start somewhere – but where? My sins, my failures, my mistakes? My wants, my needs, my downfalls? No. I think I should just start with You. And end with You. And whatever happens in between is up to you. I like how that sounds.

Lord, you gotta lead me with strong hands, but know that I’m trying, lead me with a forgiving heart, but know that I’m loving, and love me with an everlasting kindness, but know that I don’t deserve it. Lord, please make me more awake and alive to You. Show me the real me – the side of me that You see. I want the true mirror and the real reflection – because what You are to me is all that matters now and all that ever will.

I’ve had my doubts – I’ve had my mistakes and sins. I’ve had my hard times and my lost opportunities to love You. Please, please, please, make me aware of a greater longing for You, and make Your presence known to me. I’ve been blinded by the things of the world and the things I let myself focus on. Shed those, tear those, burn those, destroy those. Focus me on You alone, and make me one with You. I turn to You.

Looking back on this – where I was at nearly one year ago – I really love the middle part of it. Perhaps it’s because I feel as though I’ve come such a long way since that day… But the part about leading with strong hands and a forgiving heart and loving me kinda rocked me. Not only that, but I’m kinda surprised at my candor when I said “because what You are to me is all that matters now and all that ever will.” Not to say that I didn’t believe it then, but I don’t think I understood the seriousness of that statement when I wrote it that night.

It’s neat that I can look back and be happy with how far I’ve come in my faith journey. I guess it proves that God is working on the days that I forget to notice His plan in my life.

“Let Him be the way
To all that I want to do
And I’m not letting go of His truth
No matter what the mess, He’ll see me through
Let Him be the way.”

I pray that on this beautiful Easter morning, you can take the time to focus on making Jesus “the way” in your life.

Verse for the night: “Love righteousness, you who judge the earth; think of The Lord in goodness, and seek Him in integrity of heart; because He is found by those who do not test Him, and manifests Himself to those who do not disbelieve Him.” – Wisdom 1:1-2

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About Christina Moore

Originally from Portland, Maine, I now live in Chicago and work with extraordinary nonprofit organizations to help them champion their individual causes. My heart is in the 207, and my feet are on the ground in the 312. Enjoy readmoore!
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One Response to And I’m not letting go of His truth.

  1. Maggie says:

    Beautiful.

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