[Setting the scene for you: I was sitting in church tonight, and this is what I scribbled on a notepad. This is verbatim, no editing made. I didn’t omit anything; I’m laying it all out for you. Enjoy?]
Woah. I sit here in Your magnificent presence, and I am trying to start somewhere – but where? My sins, my failures, my mistakes? My wants, my needs, my downfalls? No. I think I should just start with You. And end with You. And whatever happens in between is up to you. I like how that sounds.
Lord, you gotta lead me with strong hands, but know that I’m trying, lead me with a forgiving heart, but know that I’m loving, and love me with an everlasting kindness, but know that I don’t deserve it. Lord, please make me more awake and alive to You. Show me the real me – the side of me that You see. I want the true mirror and the real reflection – because what You are to me is all that matters now and all that ever will.
I’ve had my doubts – I’ve had my mistakes and sins. I’ve had my hard times and my lost opportunities to love You. Please, please, please, make me aware of a greater longing for You, and make Your presence known to me. I’ve been blinded by the things of the world and the things I let myself focus on. Shed those, tear those, burn those, destroy those. Focus me on You alone, and make me one with You. I turn to You.